chance

January 31, 2014

I think allowing yourself to fall is the hardest part.
To allow yourself to feel what you feel inside.
To put aside your fears, your worries, your doubts--and live.
To give yourself the moments you deserve.
To come to grips with the fact that good is happening.
To have your hopes come to life, right in front of you.
To stop second guessing and to exist in a current state.
And it's a choice to let fear take over, or to let trust take over.
And normally I'd run.
I'd run away and hide, because it's easier that way.
But this time it is different.
And giving someone enough of you to break you is terrifying.
Yet it's exhilarating.
And you exist through it all.
The good, the bad, the misunderstood, the overthought.
Because inside you know that it is worth it.
But the voice keeps coming back.
Giving you another reason to hesitate.
Push it away.
And allow the past and future to collide.
Take that chance.
And learn and grow and be.