undiscoveredmoments

Friday, March 22, 2013

it's all happened for a reason.
the reason.
the reason.
sometimes it's unknown.
sometimes it's d i s c o v e r e d.
sometimes we just pretend like we know the answers to make us feel slightly less distorted.
when we really don't have a clue.

because life is endless.
life is t i m e l e s s.
but life isn't expected.
never.
so we try to find the answers and we try to understand why.
but maybe there just isn't even a reason.
maybe life just happens.

so we can learn and grow and feel every emotion there is to feel.
so we can understand others.
help them along the way.
have them learn from out mistakes as we continually make more.
e x p e r i e n c e.
that's important.
sometimes hard yet sometimes rewarding.
just depends.
everything just depends.
life just depends.

like that one time we almost were, and then we weren't.
because no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't shake that feeling.
the feeling of no.
the feeling of run.
so I did.
and I n e v e r looked back.
and I know you may never understand, but I do.
but you probably have a bunch of different theories as to why, and so do I, but I know they are completely different.

and then there is you.
that one time...that one try after months and months...that one kiss...
and again, I ran.
because I'm good at that.
and because all the signs that told me to go down this path e n d e d.
and to this day I don't wonder "what if.."
no, i'm solid.

and then there is you.
you.
breath of fresh air.
something new.
something complex.
something that makes me nervous and curious and I strive to solve you.
you were unexpected.
v e r y v e r y v e r y.
but i'm okay with that.
one hundred percent okay.

and i'm okay with life.
most of the time.
or at least, eventually i end up that way.
content.
but contentness isn't always content.
because again, this is life.
and sometimes it's just like, i n d e s c r i b a b l e.