sobutandwereare

Friday, January 6, 2012

and its a different feeling..
sensing that you've gone off the radar.
once having had limitless smiles and just a 'play' button on life.
because back then things were different...but maybe not as good..but i was somebody.
i had a known identity, and at the moment, it was me.
so maybe its not a bad thing to just keep it simple and feel content.
but at times the roller coaster was good.
i hid behind my smile and pompoms.
but people believed what they wanted, but i was known.
and it felt like that's how it should be..because i think it was.
constantly on the go.
but my ways changed and people began to change to.
so its possbile that its not just me.
it could just be life.
and I'm not complaining because I'm sure this is how it was meant to be..
and if i truly wanted to alter it, i could.
its just different and that's how its been the whole time.
occasionally i yearn for it..
but the thing that's different would be different, and even more different, than the actual difference.
and it could just be that we walk looking at the ground and concrete walls while avoid others judgements.
or that the bathroom counters are dripping wet and coated with soap.
or it could be that some things just are.