Monday,
October 15, 2012
It's as if I
am trying to look through my windshield at what's ahead of me and
my rear view mirror at the same time.
Groggy.
Unfocused.
Striving to hang on.
Clear.
Unclear.
I feel as if at this moment in time I am going through one of those "transition" phases.
The one where everything is as if you are looking through a fogged up mirror.
The one where you are here but not really here but you want to be so you just float..
Maybe it's because I'm sitting here with ice packs on my hip, shoulder, and foot.
Maybe it's because the past 2 weeks have been the most life changing and hectic and spiritual and terrifying and strengthening ones that I've ever experienced.
Maybe it's because I just got my senior pictures taken this last weekend.
Maybe it's because I'm behind in school and don't have the determination I usually do to keep a 4.0
Maybe it's because I'm not the same person I was last year.
I don't know.
I'm just waiting.
Groggy.
Unfocused.
Striving to hang on.
Clear.
Unclear.
I feel as if at this moment in time I am going through one of those "transition" phases.
The one where everything is as if you are looking through a fogged up mirror.
The one where you are here but not really here but you want to be so you just float..
Maybe it's because I'm sitting here with ice packs on my hip, shoulder, and foot.
Maybe it's because the past 2 weeks have been the most life changing and hectic and spiritual and terrifying and strengthening ones that I've ever experienced.
Maybe it's because I just got my senior pictures taken this last weekend.
Maybe it's because I'm behind in school and don't have the determination I usually do to keep a 4.0
Maybe it's because I'm not the same person I was last year.
I don't know.
I'm just waiting.
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